Adele has detailed her battles with anxiety and depression and how she was left bedbound and watching The Sopranos at her lowest point after her divorce came to light.
The Easy On Me singer, 33, spoke to Rolling Stone about her mental health struggles amid her split from Simon Konecki and how her body and mind overhaul came when gluten intolerance contributed to her depression.
After detailing her mournful time of battling to get out of bed, during which she simply lay watching Sopranos despite knowing she ‘needed to stay busy’, she spoke of her overhaul saying: ‘Anything that could soothe my anxiety, I threw myself in headfirst. [I traveled] anywhere where there’s meant to be brilliant energy.’
As well as travel, Adele stopped drinking for six months to alleviate ‘hangxiety’ – a term given for the negative feelings to one’s mental health in the wake of drinking.
Tough: Adele has detailed her battles with anxiety and depression and how she was left bedbound and watching The Sopranos at her lowest point
Adele’s split from Simon, who she wed in 2011 and with whom she shares son Angelo, nine, came to light on Good Friday 2019 and it was then she began battling her woes.
She explained that she struggled with the intensity of the reveal and wound up spending increasing time alone due to joint custody – leading to her nights alone without Angelo in the house, watching The Sopranos and dealing with ‘this tsunami of emotions’ that was hitting her.
Adele explained that when she celebrated her 31st birthday in May 2019 with friends, she was feeling positive – yet the next day things hit her harder.
She said: ‘I remember going upstairs, and doing my face, and getting into bed. I felt quite hopeful. It was the first time I felt I’d had a really nice evening and I was OK being in the house and going to bed on my own…
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‘I was not excited, but I was looking forward to the next day.’
It was the next day however that she wound up reclusive in bed, watching The Sopranos instead of keeping busy as she knew she should.
She went on: ‘I was like, “This is going to be really f**king up-and-down”‘ before which she launched her determined drive to overcome her battles.
Adele went on: ‘Anything that could soothe my anxiety, I threw myself in headfirst. I anywhere where there’s meant to be brilliant energy’.
She revealed she went to Jamaica, Greece, and a desert in Arizona, before also finding out she was allergic to most forms of gluten, which she discovered can cause depression as a side effect to the sensitivity.
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Adele said: ‘So, I was like, ‘Oh, great. Thanks, guys. Could have had a really fun twenties.’
Gracing the cover of Rolling Stone, the singer confessed she had come so far from the person she was before she tied the knot to Simon that she made the difficult decision to walk away from their marriage.
Adele, who recently went public with her new romance with Rich Paul, added that her single life while living in Los Angeles lasted little more than ‘five seconds,’ after her friends’ failed attempts to set her up on blind dates.
Adele said: ‘I didn’t really know myself.’ I thought I did. I don’t know if it was because my Saturn return or if it was because I was well and truly sort of heading into my thirties, but I just didn’t like who I was. I didn’t really know myself. I thought I did. But I just didn’t like who I was.’
All over: The singer confessed she had become so far from the person she was before marrying ex-husband Simon and made the difficult decision to walk away from their marriage (pictured in 2013)
Reflecting on the end of their marriage, she added: ‘It made me really sad. Then having so many people that I don’t know, know that I didn’t make that work… it f*****g devastated me. I was embarrassed. No one made me feel embarrassed, but you feel like you didn’t do a good job.’
Adele also explained her decision to delay the release of her much-anticipated album 30 by more than a year, after penning songs as an emotional reaction to her split from Simon.
She added: ‘If it wasn’t coming out now, I think I probably would never put it out.’
‘I know I would’ve changed my mind and been like, “It’s moved on. Let’s start the next album.” And I couldn’t do that to this album. I feel like it deserves to come out.’
Adele has also moved on, embarking on a new romance with American sports agent Rich Paul, at 39 six years her senior and hugely successful in his own right through his representation of numerous prominent NBA players.
Difficulties: Adele freely admitting her superstar status made it difficult to find someone who wasn’t instantly intimidated by her enormous fame
But the relationship appears to have caught the singer by surprise, with Adele freely admitting her superstar status made it difficult to find someone who wasn’t instantly intimidated – a subject she explores in new song Oh My God.
‘I lasted five seconds [dating in Los Angeles],’ she joked, admitting her close friends even attempted to set her up on a blind date.
‘You can’t set me up on a f**king blind date! I’m like, “How’s that going to work?” There’ll be paparazzi outside and someone will call [gossip site] DeuxMoi, or whatever it’s f**king called! It ain’t happening.’
Adele has found a new home for herself and son Angelo in Los Angeles, purchasing a Beverly Hills mansion for a reported $9.5million in 2016, a far cry from her humble beginnings in working class Tottenham, north London.
The singer has since invested more than $30million into American real estate, and her relocation to the US has inevitably resulted in the development of close friendships with other high profile stars – notably her neighbours, Oscar winner Jennifer Lawrence and TV personality Nicole Richie.
She explained: ‘They humanized me because I had avoided talking to anyone that was ever famous in any capacity, because I was like, “Well, I’m not famous.” I’m very British like that.
‘We never spoke about work, which was amazing, because most of the time when I catch up with someone, they want to know all about my work, and I’m like, “I don’t want to talk about that. Can we talk about something else? I’m knackered.”‘
Adeleville: The singer has since invested more than $30million into American real estate, and her relocation to the US has inevitably resulted in the development of close friendships with her high-profile neighbours
With her new album set for release in little more than a week, Adele admits it helped her find closure with her estranged father Mark Evans before his death.
Evans, who separated from the singer’s mother when she was three years old, passed away aged 57 in May after battling bowel cancer.
But she admits she resolved her differences with her father after years of feeling unloved, and made sure he was the first person to hear her latest collection of songs.
‘I don’t think I understood the deepness of how I felt about him until we spoke,’ she said.
While anticipation builds around her new music, Adele insists she will not be touring the world as she did for her third album, 25, as a consequence of ongoing COVID restrictions.
‘It’s too unpredictable, with all the rules and stuff,’ she said. ‘I don’t want anyone coming to my show scared. And I don’t want to get COVID, either.’
Last month, Adele confirmed her album’s release date and title alongside a lengthy note in which she explained that she finally felt ready to release her music.
She wrote: ‘I was certainly nowhere to near where I’d hoped to be when I first started it nearly 3 years ago.
‘Quite the opposite actually. I rely on routine and consistency to feel safe, I always have. And yet there I was knowingly – willingly even, throwing myself into a maze of absolute mess and inner turmoil!
‘I’ve learned a lot of blistering home truths about myself along the way. I’ve shed many layers but also wrapped myself in new ones.
‘Discovered genuinely useful and wholesome materials to lead with, and I felt like I’ve finally found my feeling again. I’d go as far to say that I’ve never felt this peaceful in my life.’
Tragic: Adele admits her new album helped her find closure with her estranged father Mark Evans before his death to bowel cancer at the age of 57