Roman Kemp heard ‘loads of voices’ and when he contemplated taking his own life in 2019

Roman Kemp heard 'loads of voices' and when he contemplated taking his own life in 2019 2
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Roman Kemp has told how he heard ‘loads of voices’ and couldn’t stop crying when he contemplated taking his own life in 2019. 

The presenter, 28, had a candid discussion about mental health and said he ‘couldn’t stop worrying about everything’ during that period of his life.

Speaking on Steven Bartlett’s Diary Of A CEO podcast, Roman said he contemplated jumping in front of a train after he came off antidepressants.

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Candid: Roman Kemp has told how he heard 'loads of voices' and couldn't stop crying when he contemplated taking his own life in 2019

Candid: Roman Kemp has told how he heard ‘loads of voices’ and couldn’t stop crying when he contemplated taking his own life in 2019

He said: ‘When you’re in that zone, in an absolute spiral, everything goes into a blur. All I know I was in my house sat in my pants and I couldn’t stop crying.

‘I couldn’t stop worrying about everything. My head was going like a whirlwind. I was worrying about stuff that wasn’t even logical.

‘I can’t describe what my brain was telling me. Anything that could have been a problem in my head, was a problem.

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‘You’re thinking you look bad, you’ve not done this, your tax bill, are you ever going to do this… loads of voices.

Interview: The presenter, 28, had a candid discussion about mental health and said he 'couldn't stop worrying about everything' during that period of his life

Interview: The presenter, 28, had a candid discussion about mental health and said he ‘couldn’t stop worrying about everything’ during that period of his life

‘At that point I thought, ‘I don’t know what to do’. The only thing I could think of was, ‘OK, I’ll take my own life. That’s the only way to stop this.’

Roman said his mother Shirlie happened to call him at this time and kept him on the phone until she was able to get home.

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He said: ‘My mum called me. She kept me on the phone for about an hour. In my head I was like, ‘I’ll just go to the train station and jump in front of a train.’

‘That’s honestly what went through my head. My mum got there within an hour. It’s a strange place to be. They call it a mental breakdown for a reason. Those moments are so intense that your mind implodes.’

Roman said: 'When you're in that zone, in an absolute spiral, everything goes into a blur. All I know I was in my house sat in my pants and I couldn't stop crying'

Roman said: ‘When you’re in that zone, in an absolute spiral, everything goes into a blur. All I know I was in my house sat in my pants and I couldn’t stop crying’

Speaking further about suicidal ideation, Roman said: ‘The problem is no matter what pain you’re going through in your head or sadness, you don’t get rid of that by taking your own life. 

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‘All you are doing is, you are transferring it to everyone around you.’ 

Roman’s best friend Joe, who had been a well-loved producer at Global radio for nine years, suddenly died in August 2020. 

In March last year, Roman fronted a BBC documentary called Our Silent Emergency about male suicide and mental health.

The broadcaster presented the one-off special in a bid to ‘show that there are ways to reach those who are suffering’ following Joe’s death.

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Tribute: Roman previously paid tribute to his close friend, late radio producer Joe Lyons (pictured) after he died in August 2020

Tribute: Roman previously paid tribute to his close friend, late radio producer Joe Lyons (pictured) after he died in August 2020 

Much-loved: Roman said he never thought suicide would touch his or his loved ones' lives, and called on the government to do more to help.

Much-loved: Roman said he never thought suicide would touch his or his loved ones’ lives, and called on the government to do more to help.

Roman, who has suffered with depression since he was 15, revealed he once considered suicide, while reflecting on his mental health with mother on the show.

And the star, who is a patron of Joe’s Buddy Line, said he never thought suicide would touch his or his loved ones’ lives, and called on the government to do more to help.

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Speaking previously on Steph’s Packed Lunch on Channel 4, he said: ‘I wish I knew nothing about suicide, I wish it was not part of my world, I wish I didn’t know anyone.

‘I’m sure it’s the same for Joe’s family… It’s the biggest killer in men under 40 so how come people aren’t talking about it? How come it’s not being taught in schools at a young age?

‘I never like to get political but the ignorance of the government on it is unbelievable and the stats show that… I’m sure there’s a lot of schoolteachers that might see this chat and will agree that not enough is being done to help pupils in school.’

If you have been affected by this story, you can call the Samaritans on 116 123 or visit www.samaritans.org. 

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Raising awareness: In March last year, Roman fronted a BBC documentary called Our Silent Emergency about male suicide and mental health

Raising awareness: In March last year, Roman fronted a BBC documentary called Our Silent Emergency about male suicide and mental health

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