Safiyya Vorajee broke down in tears as she remembered her daughter Azaylia on the first anniversary of her death on Sunday.
Safiyya and her ex Ashley Cain tragically lost their baby girl on April 24 last year when she was just eight months old following a courageous battle with acute myeloid leukemia.
The heartbroken mum, 34, took to her social media to ask fans to pray for her and said the pain of being without her rips her ‘body and soul to pieces everyday’.
Tragedy: Safiyya Vorajee broke down in tears on her Instagram account on Sunday as she remembered her daughter Azaylia on the first anniversary of her death
In her emotional video she said: ‘This time last year was the hardest time of my life. I lost my little girl in the morning, which his why I wanted to come back to Azaylia’s garden.’
Turning her thoughts to her ex-boyfriend Ashley, who will complete a mammoth 100 mile run in Azaylia’s memory today, she continued: ‘I’m just praying and hoping the rest of the team and Ashley and everyone else is OK on that run.
‘I know they’re finding it difficult now. Please say your prayers today for my little princess.’
Illness: Safiyya and her ex Ashley Cain tragically lost their baby girl on April 25 last year when she was just eight months old following a courageous battle with acute myeloid leukemia
The grieving mum then went on to pen an emotional tribute to her daughter on her Instagram grid including a video of her miming Whitney Houston and Mariah Carey’s 1998 duet When You Believe to the toddler.
She bravely wrote: ‘Azaylias 1 year anniversary.
‘A year without my daughter you are such a beautiful baby Azaylia and when I say it doesn’t get any easier I mean that with a full heart.
Candid: In her emotional video she said: ‘This time last year was the hardest time of my life. I lost my little girl in the morning, which his why I wanted to come back to Azaylia’s garden’
‘If love could of saved you I promise you would be here with me I will hold you in my heart & forever be connected with you for eternity.’
Describing the devastating toll it has taken on her she said: ‘The pain of not having my baby here on earth with me rips my body and soul to pieces everyday I open my eyes!
‘Azaylia you made me a mummy and that title is the most precious one I will treasure forever , knowing I have given birth to my hero my inspiration my daughter is something I will keep close to my heart forever.
Hurt: Describing the devastating toll it has taken on her she said: ‘The pain of not having my baby here on earth with me rips my body and soul to pieces everyday I open my eyes!’
‘The night before you passed we sang this song together for the last time in bed, this was our song that always kept us believing in the most darkest times.
‘You achieved more in your 8months on earth than many of us will in a life time, you are helping so many children & families baby you are an inspiration, truly missed & loved I love you keep flying high in heaven with all the other Angels.
She concluded: ‘With a heavy heart today and everyday baby mummy loves you so much I know your in the highest heaven and you look down on me today sat at your garden side from morning till night reflecting I love you so much.’
Brave: The grieving mum then went on to pen an emotional tribute to her daughter on her Instagram grid
Gone too soon: Speaking about the devasatiion she said: ‘When I say it doesn’t get any easier I mean that with a full heart’
The anniversary comes after Safiyya detailed the awful day that her Azaylia passed away in her new book.
She said she took one look at her baby girl, and knew that this was the day that she would lose her.
In an extract from her book Loving and Losing You, Azaylia: My Inspirational Daughter And Our Unbreakable Bond, Safiyya wrote of her grief after tragically losing their baby on April 24 last year.
Help: The difficult day comes after Safiyya detailed the awful day that her Azaylia passed away in her new book
She said: ‘It was April 24, 2021, and I took one look at Azaylia and knew that this was the day. She was pale and had a vulnerable look about her. Her breathing had become very slow and shallow.
‘When her breaths finally stopped coming, Ashley and I lay either side of her on the bed, wrapping our arms around her gently. ‘We love you,’ we told her. ‘We love you, Azaylia.”
Azaylia was diagnosed with acute myeloid leukaemia at eight weeks and had tumours on her lungs, stomach and kidneys.
She was given several rounds of chemotherapy and a bone marrow transplant at Birmingham Children’s Hospital but she died in April last year.
Tragic: The 33-year-old said that she took one look at her baby girl, and knew that this was the day that she would lose her
Before her death, Ashley and Safiyya set up a GoFundMe appeal for her to have pioneering treatment in Singapore, currently unavailable in the UK.
Azaylia’s heartbreaking story captured hearts worldwide as well-wishers donated £1.6million.
However, in what Safiyya called a ‘devastating blow’ her cancer spiked, meaning the treatment could no longer save her.
Her parents took her home to enjoy their last few days with her, and she passed away within two weeks.
After the funeral, Safiyya described her overwhelming grief and inability to get out of bed or dressed.
Upsetting: Azaylia sadly lost her life on April 24th at just eight months old following a courageous battle with acute myeloid leukemia
She said: ‘When I was on my own I would sit for hours on end, crying and crying and feeling myself slowly crumbling inside. I didn’t want to take antidepressants, I wanted to work through this on my own. I started to process the fact that while she was ill, I’d taken all my strength from being with Azaylia.
‘She gave me all the strength I needed to get this far, but now that my responsibilities to her on Earth were over, my strength was deteriorating. I didn’t discuss this with anyone. I tried to carry on the way I knew best.’
The couple decided to launch The Azaylia Foundation to help people going through similar situations, in Azaylia’s memory.
The Azaylia Foundation aims to support UK-based children fighting cancer by helping them access treatment not readily available from the NHS, while at the same time working with cancer research and medical institutions to advance early diagnosis and speed up the availability of new treatments in the UK.
While most people would be overwhelmed with other grieving parents approaching them for support, Safiyya bravely revealed that she likes to help people out and lend an ear when she can.
In a recent interview with MailOnline she said: ‘I am very happy for people to come up to me, sometimes people feel more comfortable to come to me to talk than they do their own partner or family, people can shut down a lot when they have to talk to someone that they know.
Honest: The ex couple have been incredibly open about their journey – updating their fans on their daughter’s illness and how they coped with their grief in the tragic months after her death
‘I’m so glad that we shared it with the world. She was an absolute beacon of light and we got to share that with everyone. The public have been our biggest support.
‘Over 80,000 people registered to be a donor for her when she was really sick. I am so proud of my daughter and I get to talk about that and I hope that it can help others.’
Safiyya – who poignantly revealed that her happiest memory of Azaylia was the day she was born – also opened up about what advice she would give to other parents who are going through the pain of being in hospital with an ill child.
She said: ‘I would tell them to treasure every moment with their child. We really tried to embrace Azaylia as much as we could. And people should just take each day as it comes, and make them smile, you need to keep that positive energy.’
‘I meet families who have been through the same thing all the time. I get women coming up to me in ASDA, people come and talk to me all the time.
‘Women always message me on Instagram as well and I want to empower other people and other women to be able to help their children and support the situation.’
Brave: The couple decided to launch The Azaylia Foundation to help people going through similar situations, in Azaylia’s memory
As they approached a year’s milestone since the loss, the pair announced they have gone their separate ways, but said they remain ‘bonded by our powerful journey together’ and ‘the eternal love we have for our daughter’.
Ex On The Beach and The Challenge star Ashley, 31, said in an Instagram statement last month: ‘After a devastating and heartbreaking year, Safiyya and I decided to separate a few months ago.’
He continued: ‘This was an incredibly tough decision which we needed to keep to ourselves for some time to give us the opportunity to figure out our own journey privately.
Heartbreaking: As they approached a year’s milestone since the loss, the pair announced they have gone their separate ways, but said they remain ‘bonded by our powerful journey together’ and ‘the eternal love we have for our daughter’
‘The past few months have demonstrated that we remain the closest of friends, spending time together everyday and that we will love, care and support each other forever.
‘We are bonded by our powerful journey together, by the eternal love we have for our daughter and our passionate commitment to her foundation.’
A source told The Sun: ‘No one knows how something so tragic can affect a couple, and it’s been incredibly painful for them to make this decision.
‘They will always love and support each other, and still live together, but the romantic side of their relationship has come to an end.’